For the last couple of weeks, since I found out this baby is going to be a girl, I've been agonizing over the room situation, where to put everyone and everything, how I was going to decorate, etc. I tend to stress over this stuff really easily which makes the decision process that much harder for me. But I think I have finally made up my mind as to how I want all this work.

I want to have a femenin but sophisticated girls room. Kailey is not a baby anymore and while she may not understand my decorating choice I believe she will learn to love it. I decided to go with a "cherry blossom" theme. This is a theme that can take on many different styles, Asian, baby, urban, etc. There is a lot on the net for this and sifting through all of it has taken a long time. There just are not that many pictures (I'm very visual) of rooms decorated in a the style that I had pictured in my mind (femenin/sophisticated). It was hard finding what I wanted and I started to become discouraged until TODAY! I found exactly what I was looking for and with the help of my lovely "artsy fartsy" sister was able to clearly visualize and decide how I want the room to look.

First I'm going to start by painting three of the walls a beige color (the longest and two shortest) and use the fourth wall as an accent wall by painting it brown. Then I'm going to apply these babies:


I found these here:
http://dalidecals.com/

The three walls will be a similar color to what is shown in the second picture and the accent wall will be as close a brown as I can get to the trunk of the tree. On the accent wall I will use two of the branches (one mirroring the other) over the crib with a shelf positioned between them with pictures on it. It will look like the shelf is on the branches or the branches are coming from behind the shelf, what ever will look best. The branches (in the second photo) will be a beige color (like the other three walls) and the flowers will be a pale pink (the second color of flower on the big tree, which I'll add but isn't shown).

The bedding (which I still have to find) will obviously coordinate with the colors of the blossoms on the tree. My crib isn't wight but I guess if it looks really goofy then I can always paint it wight. Right? I still need to decide on drapes but you get the idea.

I'm so excited now that I've finally figured all this out. Kailey will move in first and will have about 6-8 weeks of the room all to herself while the baby is still sleeping in my room. It may be longer but I doubt it. I think it will all really depend on Garrett and how quickly I can get him transitioned into the toddler bed. Which makes me nervous because he'll only be 16 month when this baby is born and get's kicked out of the crib. I would have liked to have kept him in it until he was two, but that's just not an option this time around. Hopefully it'll be okay.

I still need to do a boys room but that will have to wait until next year or maybe even later. I do know what I want to do for that though so it should be a lot easier to get it all together once I'm ready to do it.

Oh and the website I found the decals at has some seriously cool stuff! I'd check out just for kicks!

Sighhh... Now to get to it!

My friend just posted on her blog about some wild dreams she's been having since she's been pregnant and since this was something I wanted to share anyway I tell you about some of my crazy pregnancy dreams.

I personally am not nearly as insightful as to what all this means as my friend was about her dreams. For me they are just crazy and really have no rhyme or reason. I do think that dreams can be very telling about the things we are going through in life and I have definitely had some dreams like that but lately my dreams are more just nonsense than anything else. Anyway here goes.

Dream #1: Clint and I were riding bikes (which I hate) and racing through the very steep slopes that make up downtown Seattle. Eventually we made our way over to Lake Union. For some reason Clint had decided he want to take a shortcut home and I didn't. So he went his way and rode my bike down to the water. I had no intention of stopping but out of the corner of my I noticed a crowed had started to form and that there was a whale in the water (not terribly unlikely after all this is Seattle). So I decide to stop and watch since I have not seen a single whale in the five years I've lived here. When I get down to the water I see that it's not just a whale but a "Mommy" whale and her baby. Then out of no where there were at least a hundred whales, Mommy and baby, all swimming right there in Lake Union (highly, highly unlikely). Everyone was so amazed at the sight of it. Then it dawned on me that the Mommy's were teaching the babies to swim and catch fish. By this point there were all kinds of people, who had all ready been out on the water sailing and what not, jumping on the backs of the Mama whales. At first everyone thought this was really cool. The people were riding on the whales like you a dolphin or something. Then out of no where (I love how things just spontaneously appear in dreams) this old school steam powered paddle boat comes floating toward the dock. I immediately sensed that something bad was going to happen. Sure enough the paddles on the boat cut one of the Mommy whales in half (it was very graphic so I wont go into any further details there but I'm sure you could imagine). The baby whale starts to bellow and cry, so I start screaming for everyone to get out of the water. I just knew the other whales were going to be mad and protect the this newly orphaned baby and that it was not going to be good. When I start yelling everyone just looks at me like I've lost my mind. Then at that very moment the other Mama whales started attacking all the people. Not want to stick around for this nightmare of a scene I hop on my bike and start to pedal away. That's when I woke up.

See?! It's all fun and games until someone loses a limb! People really should listen to me more. ;)

Dream #2: Clint and I went to some aquarium to see some new sea lion exhibit. It was very fancy and you could actually go on the other side of the glass if you wanted to get a better look or even pet the sea lions. Around the edge of the tank was a narrow walking path with benches you could sit on. Everything was wight. The tank, the benches, the toys, everything was wight. So Clint and I are standing there watch the sea lions and debating if we were brave enough to pet one. Clint fell into conversation with another man who was also trying to decide if he wanted to pet the sea lion. Then out of no where one of the Sea Lions jumps out of the water and start attacking the guy that Clint was talking too (again this was extremely graphic but I wont go into those details). Clint and I got really scared and jumped out of the way and started to try and climb over the glass. Then I woke up.

This I think just solidifies why I don't go near any natural body of water. I love to swim in swimming pools don't ask me to go near lakes or oceans!

Dream #3: I was at home and I had just given birth to twins. It was weird though because they were Barbie dolls. But there I was just nursing these little Barbies like it was perfectly normal.

This dream I think is the result of watching the "little people" shows on TLC and my Mother in law and Mother both teasing me that I'm going to have twins. A joke that by now is a little old.

I've also recently had dreams about losing my kids or them being hurt in some way. These I won't share just because they were so vivid and really quite traumatic. Dreams like that I think are the result of my constant worry that I'm going to lose my babies. Which I think is the result of having placed one of my babies for adoption. They get so bad sometimes I have to have Clint give me a blessing just to help me fall asleep again. This is one thing about being pregnant that can, for me, either be really funny or really horrifying simply because my dreams are so vivid.

I have a lot to be thankful for today. It's been a rough week for me overall I'd say, but today I'm just feeling grateful.

For my lovely followers and random readers who may not have heard, I'm pregnant. Yes we just had a baby. No it was not planned. No I'm not ready. Yes Clint's excitement and joy is starting to slowly rub off on me. At 6 weeks pregnant I'm feeling very tired and very nauseous.

So tonight Clint and I are going to the temple for a ward temple night. I'm not really sure how I'll be fitting in my dress but I'm sure those sweet ladies in the dressing room will help me figure it out. LOL!

I'm embarrassed to admit it but it's been a few months since we last went to the temple. We really need this and I'm really looking forward to it.

We've definitely had a lot go wrong over the last couple of weeks but last night as I was saying prayers with Kailey before bed I really started to think about how much we have really been blessed through it all.

This morning I woke up feeling so guilty for all my grumbling and whining and cursing. So I got on my knees and asked the Lord to forgive me for all my complaining and then I thanked him for all that he had blessed us with, including this little surprise due in 34 weeks. That one was hard but it definitely needed to be included. After all what greater blessing could our Heavenly Father have given us?

When I was done with my prayer I felt so much better. So much lighter. So much more at peace with myself and my situation. Prayer has always been a very powerful source of comfort in my life. I think it was probably one of the first things I really gained a testimony of. I'm so grateful to have that open line between my Heavenly Father and myself.

So tonight we will go to the temple and as husband and wife and together we will thank our Creator for all the good in the world and for all that he has blessed us with.

TGIF! and TGFB (Thank goodness for babysitters)!